haha, so its like really unlike me to be updating soo soon!
but i just suddenly feel like updated...since i've been kinda
down about something...and something else has made me
rather happy again. so yea.

what's making me upset, will be left untold! haha. but i'll
definitely talk about what's making me darn happy! haha!

blahblahblah...

so i've found a partner for pair skating! totally awesomest!
though...even if i found a partner back then, i'll be in need
of a coach. so yea. but now to make things great, i've found
both a partner and coach! haha. its like those 2-in-1 stuff!
totally awesomeee!! >.<

since my partner's parents were once upon a time in the
hong kong skating team!! they're actually the only official
pair in hong kong!! and its soo cool!  i swear i'm soo happy
that i'm learning from them!!

so yea. yesterday, my partner and i were just practicing on
some basic things that didn't really require a coach. stuff
like forward and backward crossovers and side-by-side
jumps. [sorry to those who don't speak in skating
terms...]    we did pretty well with those stuff. though,
we didn't really get round to practicing much of our back
crossovers...   since some high position dude at the rink
didn't let us...kinda stupid really. cos he said something
about holding hands and going backwards. and in the rules
of the rink, holding hands of no more than two people are
allowed. but ah well. whatever to that really!

today, my partner's mum came round to the rink. so we
actually had a coach to teach us today. we didn't do much
though since we're still beginners and all. so we only did
forward and backward crossovers. it was great to have
her around to watch us though...cos she did tell us stuff
we were doing wrong...and blahblah. she did say we were
going wayyyyy too fast! haha. but course to us...we weren't
really going thatt fast, since we're used to individuals...haha!
but yea, it did feel a lot more smooth and comfortable when
we went slower!  so today's stuff wasn't too heavy.
but i did get some tips on other moves...individual stuff from
her. especially on my layback spins and double salchows!!
i guess it was good to hear from her on my layback spins...
since my coach is a guy...so he didn't need to do that...and
my partner's mum was really good at doing that before...
when she was still younger.

after we were done with the ice...it was training on the
ground! and talk about fun!! >.<   haha. we practiced on
the lifting stuff. this is when i realised gymnastics'll help me.
and it's a pity i never kept it...haha. a lot of the tensing and
balancing stuff. so now i've got to train hard!! but it was still
really fun!  another skating friend of mine came skating today
as well. and he was playing around with us as well, with all
those lifts and stuff. he never came into contact with pairs...
and he found it pretty fun and interesting too! haha. it was
funny to see him and my partner doing the lifts though. ya
know, guy and guy. haha.

anyway, i can't believe my competition is in four days!!!
soo scared!!! >.<   haven't competed in eight years!! well,
skating wise...since i did have flute competitions. haha.
but yea!! ahh, soo scared! but i'm really excited as well.
though i'm hating my event schedule. i swear it sucks!! haha.
all three of my events are on saturday...and the one that i
care most and supposingly most important is at the end!!
arrg! so i'll be all tired from the other events. and the last one
is the most tiring! its a good thing the event before that is not
that big. so it ain't going to waste too much of my energy!
haha.

with four days left, i got a lot of final training and touch ups
to do! haha!! though, tomorrow [or rather today...its past
12!]  i'm not sure if i'll be going skating! haha. since i've got
stuff to do from 1 ish onwards. >.<    so if i can't wake up
early enough to go skating at 10...then it'll be a skate-free
day! haha. though i do need some rest! haha. but yesterday
and part of today were very light stuff. yesterday, was mainly
playing around with my partner. so yesterday was like, a non-
practice day but was still on the ice! haha. "just can't get off
the ice" [quoted from the movie - ice princess]  haha, that's
just soo me!

and today, well, since i was kinda upset, my coach didn't
really want me to practice much. cos i kept falling. man,
emotions do affect performance! ahhh!    but before my
lesson, i was doing fine...but during and after i was killing
myself more than practicing. haha. it was a good thing my
partner kept me happy.    him and skating...totally weird!
he's just soo freaking talented...the the jumping bit...but when
it comes to spins...i'll rather die! haha. he's like doing triple
jumps! [its world class stuff!!  not very common in hong kong!]
but he can't even do a freaking one foot spin!! it does get me
kinda annoyed but it makes me laugh a lot! cos there's suchh
a huge difference in his abilities. haha!

so yea, i was pretty happy during the evening onwards today!
though, i'm still really upset...but not as much compared to
this morning. this morning...well afternoon, since i woke up
at 2...whilst i was heading to the rink...i was just thinking
about things..and got kinda scared i'll be attacked with
another period of depression...its still haunting me really. but
i'm glad i know there's stuff and people to keep me happy!
haha. and xanga is always one of the best places to spill my
guts out...hahaha. okay, spilling my guts out without spilling it
out. okay, that doesn't really make sense. but yea, xanga...me
ish lovin' it! haha. i don't know, i just feel soo much lighter
after updating my xanga. since i can write whatever. and no
one will really care much! cos i tend to write nonsense...and i
like writing nonsense! haha.     and its always good...cos i
don't feel bad for no updating everyday or so. but journals
and diaries just don't work for me. i mean, they're great, cos
i can really spill my guts out and all...but its just...i feel really
bad if i don't get round to writing in them for soo long!! haha.

but yea. maybe i should try start writing again. but this time
i'm thinking of writing a skating journal. mainly about my
training and stuff. since now i'm doing both individual and
pair skating. it's good to keep a record of things! haha. as
for what's on my mind...i think i'll just keep to the whole
xanga thing. cos then i won't feel as bad for the whole
updating once a month thing! writing once a month...bad. >.<
so yea. skating journal shall it be!  for a second i was thinking
of opening a new xanga account...for my skating journal...but
since i lovee writing...as it the physical action of writing...
writing in a book is better! haha!   yeayea, stupid, i know!
but hey that's me!

mm, so now i've got my once upon a time diary. haha. and
i've just spent some time reading it! haha!! omgosh, there's
only, somehwhat three entries in it...the last one was never
finished! haha. its funny how i only write in it when i'm totally
depressed. haha. those entries were written during the gcse
exam period! haha. they were rather entertaining! there's
like a totally of 15pages of writing...man, i do write a lot!!!
ohh, and its soooooo funny...cos i don't recall myself using
the word 'golly'. haha! i can't believe i used to use that word!
not that i've got anything against! its just funny. maybe i ought
to start using that word again...haha!

soo, now i'm a lot happier! haha. i'm actually talking to the
person who got me darn upset today! haha. i gave them the
silent treatment for the whole day today! =p   which was
rather mean, but whatever! haha. though, i was being kinda
bitchy at the beginning of the convo just now! haha. ah well.
that's me i guess?

anyway, i'm going to get started with my skating journal. so
i'm off xanga now. and this post is super-duperly long! haha.
so yea!

loving you all out there!! =]   and i thank those who were
and are always there for me!! muahhh*

God Bless,
stef*

okay, so i haven't updated for a long time. but i just have this sudden
craving to update. so here i am! =]

when to festi to skate today. since i saw a friend there. finally got
round to trying the ice there. it was pretty awesome i've got to say.
but it felt kinda small...guess i'm too used to megabox. haha.
best thing about today was that i landed every single double toe i
did!!!   and yesterday i was killing myself just to land them.

but yesterday was awesome to! went skating with my bro!!
had soo much fun playing pairs yesterday. it started off with us and
this other coach working on our spreadeagles and stuff. and some-
how went to playing pairs. they started off first. after a long time
of exploring with a throw axel...me and me bro actually managed to
land one! man was it awesome!!   >.<     which makes me want to
learn pairs even more!!! i mean, i'm sure our positioning weren't all
correct. but it seemed okay. haha.  another thing about yesterday
that was awesome, was my double salchows got better. i'm soo
glad it came back! or i'll be screwed!

ohh, news! i finally found out when my competition is!! yeahyeah!
well, at least my events are on nov 10th, saturday. omgosh, i'm soo
excited!  really scared too!  i definitely need more practice! though
that is one hard thing to fit in my schedule.   since my days
are made of school, tutoring...and the day already ends. or more
like...by the time i finish tutoring, megabox is closed already for
hockey games/training...   so yea, it really sucks. only left
with fridays, saturdays and sundays to practice. arrg!

sighh, so its past 1 now. and i've got school tomorrow. man, life
sucks sometimes! >.<  sniff, skating is soo out of the picture for
tomorrow. ah well, at least i get to skate on tuesday morning!! =]
then wednesday will be a skate-free day as well. >.<   haha, okay,
i just realised...i've only got two skate-free days a week! LOL!
okay, maybe it ain't thatt bad. though, i only get to skate for around
two hours on tuesdays and thursdays. so that kinda sucks.

anyway, mm...i just realised there's a heck loada skating language
in this blog. sorry to those who don't understand...which i'll be
guessing is most who reads this! haha.

so i'm on this great mission of saving money to get a new skating
blade!  soo excited!  haha, though...as many know...me and saving
is close to impossible! haha. but omgosh, i've done the calculations...
and found that if i save 800bucks a week...it'll take me around five
weeks to save up enough. well, 4 weeks if i don't include shipping
fees. haha...soo, if everything goes as plan...i should be skating
with a brand new pair of blades by the beginning of 2008! haha,
what an awesome start to the new year!! yeahh! =]

man, i write a lot!  and since i'm typing this on a laptop, i feel soo
pro...like i'm some high class working person...ya know that type
of image...like..ya know.    but anyway, that'll sooo not be me.
haha. wouldn't want to be like those ladiess. >.<   too much of the
workaholic type person. haha. no thanks!

and just now my friend had stated that i haven't updated for some-
what 26days! haha, thanks dude for counting!

okay, i'm actually surprised i'm out of things to say!  this is like a...
"end-of-the-world" type thing to happen! gahh!  but i still want to
write more. i have no idea why though. i guess my sudden craving
of updating came with a "need to keep typing" bonus as well! mm...!

talking to a friend who lives by themselves. its kinda funny really
how i always think about living by myself. i mean, wouldn't it be
soo awesome! like, ya know, you get all the freedom you want.
since you don't have to think about others who live with you...then
again. the worst bit is the whole rent thingy i guess? haha. that'll
be the only bad thing about it really. and maybe the whole...some-
times it can get really lonely thing. but i mean, its a great way to
learn to be individual. and stop depending on others. mm...haha.
yep, stef is off in some random daydream of hers again...
but, omgosh, i can't wait til i move out of my parents' place. since
then i can change the looks of my little haven of rest to what i'll
like it to look! haha. but in the end...its all about the cash!  okay,
fine, the age bit comes in first...but after that...haha.  [stef, just
shut up...! thanks.]

anyway...i guess i really should stop typing...for many reasons!
one which is obvious...i don't have anything in mind to talk about..
secondly, its somewhat...close to...3am! >.<   so yea, me off! haha.

so yea, take care people til next time i update! =]  loving ya all
out there!! *muahh!

God Bless,
stef*

haha. so its been nearly a month since i've updated my dearest
xanga. and the reason why i'm updating now, is like always...
"unknown".  ah well, that's me. i guess i just felt like typing, since
i'm not using my own computer and the keyboard on this laptop
is pretty fun to type with. haha, lame..i know. but yea. that's me.

so days now are like always, its school and skating. though i
guess less of the skating this week...have a anti-skating week.
for no reason really. i guess just a simple self-control training.
haha. stupid, i know. esp when i have a competition coming up
next month. training/practice is pretty important. hahaha. but then
again, i might just be going skating sometime this week in the end.
purely cos megabox has this special promo thingy...and its not
as pricey to go. hahaha. but i highly doubt i'll be having my
lesson this week. since i can't be bother to go back to skyrink.
laziness i guess you can say.

anyway, nothing much to write really. just a heck loada rambling
like all my other post!!   ohhh, and i'm starting latin dancing
some time soon!! yeahh! can't wait. but i've only got one small,
problem which is stopping me from starting lessons, which is
the fact i don't have a partner yet! hahahaha. ah well, i'm
keeping my eyes open for anyone!! =p

haha, man, i've already typed like three paragraphs of nonsense!
i bet if anywhere ever had a award for the most random/nonsense
rambling, i would get it! haha. XD

okay, so now i'm talking to people on msn. so i nearly forgot
about typing this post! haha. i guess it was lucky that i've got it
opened. or i'll most prob finish it when i switch the computer
off! haha.   mm, anyway, i don't really have much more to ramble
about. so i'm off this page! =p

take cares!! love ya all out there! *muahh

God Bless,
stef*

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